It wasn't anything I hoped or expected it to be.

Your arm around me
I could tell you wanted to
by the way your head turned towards me
I could feel you looking
and me pretending to look at the television
and closing my eyes
just didn't work
anymore.


If I had it my way
we'd just sit there
together
with your hand
on my knee
and
my hand on
your arm
and that would
be
enough.

You.

I tried to rid myself of you

Carve you out of myself

Reaching bone deep in places

Just to make you leave

And yet you still keep coming back

Dragging me along with you

Such sweet words

A pied piper

You used them

Against me

But now you wonder why I have left.

Blaming me

For the things you had done

When really

It was your fault all along

You should know that.

Detach.

Take everything

Everything that you have

Any attachment to.

And

Detach.

Remove yourself

And you will

Feel nothing

Any more.

Nothing.

And then

In time when

They detach

Themselves

From you

And feel nothing.

Then neither

Will you.

No-one will hurt.

But the detaching

Is a

Necessary

Sacrifice

You need

To be

Willing

To make.

Because

In the end

Everyone leaves.

Even if

They say

They won't.

They still do.